$$$ -_- My friend$ are a$$hole$!! They know I’m awn #Probation but they be telling me they gawt tha good $hit!! #Life #Oxycontin $$$

$$$ -_- My friend$ are a$$hole$!! They know I’m awn #Probation but they be telling me they gawt tha good $hit!! #Life #Oxycontin $$$

kill-natalie:

am I the only one who tries to learn lyrics to rap songs so I can surprise people during car rides

$$$ It$ $till Rock n’ Roll ta me. #Morphine #Life $$$

$$$ It$ $till Rock n’ Roll ta me. #Morphine #Life $$$

Been clean $ince $unday night/Monday morning. Felt good mentally to detox but had a needle for breakfa$t.
$$$ 60mg tablet$, lovely Mboxe$ and Wat$on 10 325$ :) Photo taken by my boyfriend. $tarted out with 30 norco$ & 20 MS Contin$! #Morphine #Love #Life #Drugs $$$

$$$ 60mg tablet$, lovely Mboxe$ and Wat$on 10 325$ :) Photo taken by my boyfriend. $tarted out with 30 norco$ & 20 MS Contin$! #Morphine #Love #Life #Drugs $$$

princess-digi:

Best Hallmark card ever.

$$$ **HUG** $$$

princess-digi:

Best Hallmark card ever.

$$$ **HUG** $$$

orichimarutine:

#nek @michiemouse ‘s addiction #morphine 320 is plenty! LOL

$$$ Grey Gho$t$ ♥ $$$

orichimarutine:

#nek @michiemouse ‘s addiction #morphine 320 is plenty! LOL

$$$ Grey Gho$t$ ♥ $$$

noctuaries:

Morphine 100 mg

noctuaries:

Morphine 100 mg

Walked ta the $tore an’ gawt can$ of air for Whippet$ an’ a fifth of vodka :)

$$$ An’ we’ve been raving for an hour! $$$

Ju$’ $hot up 50mg of morphine. Floating <3
Cru$h up Grey Gho$t$ on my probation paper$.

Like I gawt a fuckin’ problem!

The Whirlpool

     I am $tuck in thi$ whirlpool that continue$ to $uck out my happine$$, my life, my exi$tence. I am a morphine u$er, but that i$ not my whirlpool. I am in a relation$hip, but that i$ not my whirlpool. The whirlpool that i$ draining me continuou$ly i$ unknown at the moment. A namele$$ force that bring$ me down daily. When I lean up out of bed, my $oul $tay$ $tuck to the blanket$. I am afraid thi$ whirlpool will $uck in the only thing$ I care about. It ha$ ate many friend$, my college life, my family life, everything I really kept clo$e. Be$t friend$ label me a $keezer becau$e I moved on. I moved on. For a fucking rea$on becau$e nothing wa$ going right la$t $ummer. I fell in love and e$caped. But thi$ whirlpool followed me. It i$ a cur$e I cannot beat. 

     Morphine $oothe$ the heartache and tighten$ my heart. It hurt$, almo$t. But I am thankful for the pinch it bring$. I am thankful I can lean over and ki$$ Aaron’$ forehead a$ the $yringe i$ emptied. A$ I $tare into hi$ hazel, fiery eye$ the whirlpool drift$ and I am $afe. Aaron make$ me $afe. I connected a$ $oon a$ we pulled out our  matching Tab$. Drug$ connected u$ that day and after that he wa$ almo$t all I could think about.. I do not remember the moment he a$ked if I wanted to $hoot up, hell, knowing me I probably inquired him fir$t. But either way, a$ he $unk that needle into my arm, he al$o $unk into my heart and mind. Our drug bond meant he wa$ the only per$on I didn’t have to hide from. Aaron wa$ there for me in hi$ ba$ement, covered in fruit roll-up wrapper$. He wa$ there for me in hi$ car, bla$ting Lil Wyte, teaching me. 

     Even though the whirlpool $eemed to devour all the good in my life, it left Aaron alone. He wa$ left able to teach me about life, in$truct me on thing$ I never imagined. He took care of me when I wa$ dope $ick. He wa$ the e$$ence of care. That i$ why I fell for him. Aaron never left me feeling like an outca$t, he made me feel at home next to him, $treaming Netflix movie$ all night and day. We $lept on the living room floor every night; Be$t friend$. 

    I even went to Chicago and all I could think about when I wa$ roaming the blood-covered corner$ and tagging “Fuck Tha Police” on builing$ wa$ Aaron… He made me home$ick. Nemo loved me. Protected me in the helli$h $treet$. But I didn’t love him back. I let the whirlpool take him. On the eight hour Indian Trail$ bu$ ride back I wa$ $o anxiou$ to $ee him upon my return. The next evening Aaron wa$ pulled into the dead end pa$t my father’$ hou$e and we were $hooting up again. I felt $o comfortable with the rig $tuck in my hand, him holding it there.. Time alway$ $topped and $till doe$ when he i$ injecting me. 

    The whirlpool can’t have Aaron. I won’t let it. I fight the darkne$$ that come$ right before the $wirl$ and do everything I can to ward it off. He i$ my $lice of happine$$. I think we de$erve each other. No matter the wrong thing$ we have done, $eperately and collectively, we de$erve each other. We wa$h each other clean of our mortal infraction$ and view each other in the brighte$t of light$. I am $tuck in thi$ whirlpool that continue$ to $uck out my happine$$, my life, my exi$tence. But the whirlpool can’t have Aaron.

$$$ #Morphine #Life $$$ (at Kim&#8217;$)

$$$ #Morphine #Life $$$ (at Kim’$)